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Garrett's Story 

Garrett, a 14-year-old boy [10/30/99] with autism, experiences the world with a mixture of pain and agitation every morning, every afternoon, every waking hour. He is hypersensitive to many of the sounds, textures, and sights to which all of us are exposed daily, but for him, such exposure leaves him anxious. Wouldn’t you seek to shut off the pain and the agitation? It makes sense that Garrett is trying to do just that—stop the sound, sensation, sight, and nausea that interrupt his daily life. I’ve worked with Garrett since he was a day old. Garrett is my son.

Of course, not all people with autism experience or react to it the same way Garrett has. The manifestations of autism are different for each person. But because Heavenly Father knows all of us, He will guide us as parents, leaders, teachers, and physicians to know how to best reach His other children, including those with disabilities. He has done that for me. Here, I wish to tell a little bit about Garrett’s experience with autism and how Heavenly Father has helped us better understand our son—who was first His son.

 Garrett is one of eight children born to us. My first three children, including Garrett, have autism spectrum disorders. My first instinct as a mother is to hold and wrap a child in warmth, in touch, with life. Mothers want to protect their children, teach them, and interact with them in the form of cooing, smiles, hugs, tears, and kisses. And it’s natural to expect some type of response to all that you are giving your child. But from the very beginning, Garrett has been hypersensitive to sound, touch, smells, and food textures. As a toddler and young child, he recoiled at touch, vomited most foods, and buried his head, face, and body into stuffed animals, pillows, and blankets.

At first I would pray and pray to find out what to do to “fix” our child. But through the gentle workings of the Spirit I learned that Garrett was not broken—I just needed to learn to see him through all of the challenges. I came to know that he is special and was sent to us and that I could learn from him. I needed to exercise my faith in Heavenly Father and His plan of happiness in order to see Garrett, his gifts, and his potential, not just his external behaviors.

Such faith was crucial in seeking to understand Garrett. In his early years, until he was about four years old, Garrett knew how to communicate in only one way: crying. Was he in pain? Was he trying to tell me something? “Maybe this is just how it’s going to be,” I thought. Disheartened and not knowing what to do, I continued to pray.

The answer came to enroll Garrett in a local school program for children with autism, a process in which we saw the hand of the Lord. With Garrett’s participation in the program, I learned how to recognize Garrett’s talents. I was taught more constructive methods of communicating with my son and understanding what he was experiencing daily. Through these things, the family and I started to see our Garrett! With faith and in time, we also developed perspective to be able to anticipate his needs.

For a long time, I sought to constantly monitor situations to prepare myself to handle Garrett’s reaction to unexpected sounds or smells, or, when possible, intervene to prevent the long tantrum that could ensue. If Garrett were my only child, this model of protection and building a bubble around everything might have made sense. But over the years, I have amended my initial response of “sheltering” and creating controlled environments because in the end, they were creating more of a disability for Garrett and our other children than I first thought.

Since relying solely on my own knowledge clearly wasn’t working, I once again leaned on Heavenly Father for direction. As difficult as it was to switch from my own logic to listening to the Lord and following promptings from the Spirit, our family is better off for my having done so. I stopped building the “perfect bubble” for Garrett to always live in and instead felt guided to build a “safety bubble” for him—a place to go when he has been pushed to his breaking point and needs a place to calm down.  For instance, if things at school have been noisy and loud and a lot has been expected of him, I provide a place for him to “decompress” when he comes home, perhaps allowing him to sit in a quiet place and draw. Garrett’s meltdowns have been greatly reduced through strategies and accommodations like this one, all based on the guidance of a loving Heavenly Father.

What I have learned from Garrett and our other children who fall within the autism spectrum is that they are children first and people with autism second. I imagine that it is much the same way that our Heavenly Father sees all of us: we are His children first, and we have trials and experiences second. Our children want love, attention, help, success, and praise. They want their pain to be eased, and they want to feel hope. They enjoy life differently than many people do, yet their needs and wants are similar to those of most everyone.

What I have learned from my Heavenly Father in regards to raising children is to be more like Him as a parent. I’ve learned to stop, to think, to listen. I’ve learned to keep my communication with my Heavenly Father open. And I’ve learned to have what our family calls “a bendy brain”—to be flexible—when looking at the situations life throws at us. This means exposing all of our children to life experiences and social situations instead of isolating ourselves.

Finally, I’ve learned how rewarding all the effort, the sleepless nights, and the hard work really are—how much they pay off in the end. Yes, raising children with special needs takes faith and patience, but they give me back more love than I could ever imagine and in ways I never expect. And I’ve learned that however unknown the path may seem, the Lord will always guide us. 

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